Today’s Image #374

Title“$1 Hits – Page 30”
Dimensions – 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date – 1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Action Books
New All Occasion Friendships
Not available in stores!
Buy one, get 2- save $5.00
Favorite Chef Greeting Cards
The Joy of Cooking by Large Men
32 Inspirational Note Cards
New! 2 Cassettes!
New! Double-Length CD for the Microwave!

Today’s Image #373

Title“$1 Hits – Page 29”
Dimensions – 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date– 1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Photographs-
New Sleight of Hand Lanterns of Light with the utter ridiculousness of it…
Now you see it
Now you don’t!
-but no one denied her a moment of it, neither the conked-out bug-eyed paranoia nor the manic keening coming on desire and causing her to laugh and Mary Tyler Moore desire reaching inside herself
Remember the pleasure
Reaching out for herself
A celestial aspect made easy

Today’s Image #372

Title“$1 Hits – Page 28”
Dimensions – 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date– 1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Sale! Ponytail Cap
Hide Hair Loss
Originally Formulated for Movie Stars
Sale! Genuine Russian Electronic One Track Cap
New Tornado Video
Military Medal Zig Zag Pencil Archeology Proof we are not alone!
UFO’s and Aliens are Real!
surrounding her threatening her
Now you can see what the Government doesn’t want you to know
“I’m never worried when I’m with you, sweetie.”

Today’s Image #371

Title$1 Hits – Page 27”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

New! Magic Eye 3-D Illusion Video
Remnants of a Superpower
2 Hours of Amazing Animal Struggles for Survival and Dominance
X-Ray Vision Games you can’t Lose
“Get those cameras and microphones out of here,” the guy said.
“I’m not afraid of you!”
Great Values on Cassette!
Great Value!
4 Payments each
$6.24 $2.49 $2.24 $2.24

My Personal Cognitive Matrix

Note: This post comes after many months of contemplation and is based upon theories which are under development, but I find very interesting and I want to share my thoughts so far on this concept I call my “Personal Cognitive Matrix.”

Keep in mind as you are reading that everyone has their own personal cognitive matrix. In this post I share examples from my own life just for illustration purposes.

Introduction To My Personal Cognitive Matrix

I used to assume that the world looked the same to everyone. I thought the way I saw the world was the same way everyone else was seeing things. I was wrong about that…

In many ways, for many years, I naively assumed that everyone also had the same values I do, felt the same rage at injustice that drives so many of my projects, looked for the same beauty I seek, desired compassion, truth, idealism, etc. – all the little pieces of personality or my “self” that make up my personal cognitive matrix.

My view of things started to radically change when I was 33 and found out I have bi-polar disorder. For the first time I really became concretely aware that I was experiencing a world in a very different way than many of the people around me.

Sure, it all looks the same, but the perceptions are very different for each of us, very subjective and subject to change.

In the post ahead I’m going to go back to the basics and explain some of the elements in my thinking process, and look at how I see my personal cognitive matrix constructed.

Personal Cognitive Matrix Defined

Personal – Of, affecting, or belonging to a particular person rather than to anyone else.

Cognitive – Of, or pertaining to, the mental processes of perception, memory, judgment, and reasoning, as contrasted with emotional and volitional processes.

Matrix – An environment or material in which something develops.

Personal Cognitive Matrix is a phrase I have created to describe the world “as I know it to be” separate from the world “as we all know it to be”  – which is  very different from the world “as it really is.”

My personal cognitive matrix is built from many things like my spirit and my relationship to the greater “super-consciousness”, but the beginning is my most basic relationships – where did I enter this world – what time, what day and where on the planet?

What were the relationships I was born into, family-wise, socially, and cosmically?

My Birth, The Stars And Then Everything…

Above: My Birth-sky – Here is a image showing where the Sun was at the moment of my birth in relation to my main planet Mercury (between the Horns of the Heavenly Bull), as well as Venus, Mars, Jupiter, my two dogs Canis Major and Canis Minor, the cradle of the slingshot of the Shepherd Auriga and the battle club of Orion, and most importantly – my birth sign, Gemini. The day after I was born Venus rose as the morning star…

I was born on Thursday afternoon, June 18, 1964 at 2:14 in Glendale, California.

My mother was checked into the second hospital in Glendale California she had been to in the last couple of days, during which time my Dad had gotten a new job, and the family moved from one house to another.

Maybe because I was born a Gemini I needed two hospitals to be born in, but when I came home I was, for my family, a new baby in a new home, son number three, and child number five.

My parents called me their “Holy Spirit Baby” because they had been “baptized in the Holy Spirit” around the same time I was conceived. This had a large impact on my life growing up.

And I was born during a time of great social change.

Born Under The Sign Of The Twins

As I mentioned (and I’m sure it’ll come up again) I was born in the sign of Gemini, with the Sun at the foot of Castor, one of the twins which make up the Gemini sign, Pollux being the other twin.

In the myths, Castor and Pollux were born to Leda after Zeus seduced her in the form of a swan. Castor was born human and Pollux was born divine.

When Castor was killed Pollux pleaded with his father Zeus to allow him to share his immortality with his twin, and raise him from the dead. Zeus agreed and together they became the constellation we know as Gemini in the night sky (this is the really short version of the story).

Anyone who has a Gemini friend knows the reality of two twins sharing an existence together in one body. We are the mercurial ones who naturally shift quickly from one mood to another like an ever changing breeze.

On my astrological chart, Gemini is everywhere – Gemini and Mercury.

When I was born Mercury rested between the horns of Taurus, the great bull of the heavens (shown below).

Spirit and Intention

In my meditations over the last couple of weeks I’ve been thinking of the words “Spirit” and “Intention” as interchangeable. Here’s some phrases I wrote down that illustrate this idea:

My spirit is my intention and vice-verse.

Intention is what animates us and moves the spirit in us.

The Holy Spirit is the Holy Intention of God.

When I do things with intention my spirit becomes engaged.

In my thinking I picture this spirit energy and intention as emanating from our hearts like a giant magnetic field which surrounds our whole body, and out a couple of feet – what we normally feel as our “personal space.” (see illustration below)

Spirit/Intention is different from consciousness – which includes a broad range of awareness/states we experience.

Consciousness

Most of the time when I’m sitting and thinking, my personal consciousness is engaged with the greater “super-consciousness” along with my intention/spirit, which is floating in this realm of the greater “super-consciousness”.

I see it as a morphic field without confining barriers (it doesn’t just exist inside me, but rather it’s a field that runs through every conscious thing) – like a great sea, but not of water, just created from the field of the energy of existence – also known as “chi.”

My personal consciousness seems to be anchored (primarily) with the pineal gland in the center of my brain, but each of my cells seems to participate is this process too, even though I don’t understand this very well – that’s just my intuitive feeling.

My personal connection to consciousness seems to be a complete body experience, while at other times it’s merely tethered to my body by it’s connection to my pineal gland. This is a strange science indeed – and we are just at the beginning stages of studying this fascinating part of reality.

Below: this is a rough sketch from my notebook showing the magnetic field that originates in our hearts and surrounds us like much like the Earth’s magnetic field. The wavy lines show how our personal fields tend to sublimely interact with one anther in the “greater super-consciousness.”

These two parts (intention/spirit and consciousness) seem to work together, or not, to create my individual human experience which is somewhat porous and can receive outside conscious information.

These two parts of myself combine with where I physically exist in time and space, which also includes the cosmic influences on me because of the place and time of my birth, and together, all this helps to form my Personal Cognitive Matrix I live in everyday. And everyone around me is having their own similar experience – similar, but very different.

This is the beginning of my postings on this subject – we still need to add the “soul” into the mixture, but I save that for a later posting.

Today’s Image #370

Title$1 Hits – Page 26”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Not Sold in Stores!
New Video stars Clint Eastwood!
Wrestling’s Strangest Matches
New Cassette or CD!
Set of 2!
New! 3 Cassettes!
7 Movies on 2 Videos!
Deluxe Joy Freaks “Powerful, Horror Masterpiece”
New! Not Sold in Stores!
Old Russian intellectuals have always looked for… another country, a world class practical joke

Today’s Image #369

Title$1 Hits – Page 25”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

New Book Offer Stops Skin Problems Fast
Sale! Fade Ugly Skin Spots
Before & After
How do they do that?
Spilled Nail Polish Chattering Teeth Disgusting Sounds Machine Backwards Wall Clock Foul Smelling Stink Spray
32-OZ. Spray!

Today’s Image #368

Title$1 Hits – Page 24”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

New Cassette!
New Video Offer!
New Black Light Wall Hanging Mind Blowing Jigsaw Money

Joke Money is touring France
blanket over her lap and her legs wedged back into the corner, her and her little bare breasts, silent, looking exceedingly go, and she is on the bus, christened Anonymous, down to her bra and panties, which she prefers.
Collector’s Puzzle Box
Mysterious Life-like Leg
Life-like no matter how weird it is.

Today’s Image #367

Title$1 Hits – Page 23”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Sale! Ginseng Tablets
Buy 1, Get 1 Free!
New! Ginseng Toothpaste
New Cassette Offer
How to be a Ventriloquist Wrong Color Playing Cards
7-Piece Set!
Set of 2! Government UFO Conspiracy X-Ray Glasses Life Size
6 Card Repeat

Today’s Image #366

Title$1 Hits – Page 22”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

That warm, damp, seductive environment calls for a little meandering
Champagne sprouted slender nozzles from silver ice- Why may a person who has had a few drinks have no feeling that he has been affected by alcohol?
How do Sword Swallowers do it?
Not sold in stores!
Your price $14.95
Your price $11.95
Your price $8.95

In Java, I’ve noticed, a woman’s walk has a languid, extra slow moving
“Maybe she didn’t want her old man to know.”
nobody denied her, and she could wail, nobody tried to cool that inflamed brain that was now seeping out Stark Naked brain eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-

 

Note: Today is the one year anniversary of posting “Today’s Image”!

Today’s Image #365

Title$1 Hits – Page 21”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Great Gift no camper should without
New Book! $3.00 Off!
Book of Hocus-Pocus Card Deck Perpetual Motion Machine Prison Chain Escape
Walk on Water!
Instantly turns liquids to solid grace
To get where your going isn’t as important as the going.
Living in mind powered machines you can build

Today’s Image #364

Title$1 Hits – Page 20”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Sale! Cigarette thru Coin Melting Coins
4 Nickels to 4 Dimes
Real Folding Coins
“Round Tuit” Coins
$1,000,000 Phony Money Secret Thumb Trick Magic Mystery
New Video!
See Special Offer Below

Today’s Image #363

Title$1 Hits – Page 19”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

New Lost Cities and Ancient Mysteries!
New! 1 Video, 1 Audiocassette!
Limited Edition Teardrops from the Heart Dictionary
Sale! Zero Pain Live-Action White Mouse Instant Hair Remover Vanishing Device

Today’s Image #362

Title$1 Hits – Page 18”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Angled Toenail Scissors and Clippers
Not sold in Stores!
Computer Animated Virtual Reality
The pale boot of summer
you must patch it out with 10,000 Formulas, Secrets, Processes
Webster’s Large Print Tweezer Set with Magnifier

Today’s Image #361

Title$1 Hits – Page 17”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

New! Set of 3!
Free Gift! Set of 3!
Set of 3!
Deluxe bald head gelatin brain mold activity kit
New Ancient treasures
7:00 AM Before – 7:02 AM After

Today’s Image #360

Title$1 Hits – Page 16”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

Miracle Changing Ropes
Miracle Electric Deck
Levitating Magic Wand
Realistic Human Skull
Realistic Gag Chicken
New and Improved Security Wallets

Today’s Image #359

Title$1 Hits – Page 15”
Dimensions
– 5.25″ x 5.5″
Format – mix-media word collage in a handmade book
Date
1994

Today’s word collage reads –

The All American Cafe-

Miracle Glass
Food and Freezer Storage Containers
Send ‘n’ Seal Salad Bowl Set
New! Two 10-OZ Bags!