The Bipolarcoaster

Bipolarcoaster (my own term) – these are all posts which relate in one way or another to my ongoing journey on this strange ride I call The Bipolarcoaster…

If I’ve written about depression, manic depression, bipolar disorder or anything closely related, it’s here somewhere.

Please note: most recent posts are listed first – Enjoy!

  • Talking Medical Marijuana Blues An Introduction Since 2007 I've been a member of a number of different collectives in Long Beach. I've volunteered, built websites, taken photos of over 300 different strains of medical marijuana, and grown to care about a number of incredible peo...
  • We Shall Overcome! Talking Medical Marijuana Blues - Part Four Rev. Martin Luther King stated over 40 years ago in a speech that "the arc of the moral Universe is long, but it's bent towards Justice..." During my long, personal civil rights march towards medical mar...
  • Talking 'Bout My Medication Talking Medical Marijuana Blues - Part Three A Life Long Journey I wasn't diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder until I was 33 years old. This revelation - that there was a medical reason, of some kind, behind my most confusing moods and actions - caused a...
  • I Get By With The Help Of My Friends Talking Medical Marijuana Blues - Part Two That's No Way To Get Your Medicine There was a time, not very long ago, when I would often have to wait for days, sometimes a week to get my medicine. Sometimes nothing would be available from the few friends...
  • The Man On The Other Side Of The Wall Talking Medical Marijuana Blues - Part One Today I have a number of thoughts about medical marijuana running around my head, all of which I've grouped under the heading of Talking Medical Marijuana Blues in my head. I plan on posting several article...
  • Sleep, Wake, Sleep, Wake, Repeat... Tonight the moon is full, Orion is rising large in the east, Jupiter is straight overhead and Venus is shining brightly as the Evening Star - it's a beautiful night on planet Earth...
  • (This Story Is) Subject To Change, Pt 1 Change? You're soaking in it... After a prolonged period of depression (this latest bout started in early July around the 8th) it takes some extra effort to start communicating again; responding to emails, getting back on Facebook, getting my various pro...
  • Rainy Days With Whirlpools For today I'll just re-post the three songs about the weather, both inside and out, which I posted on Facebook this afternoon... First Posting Depression comes in like a storm with my thoughts washing down a gutter of whirlpools - The first day is alway...
  • The Turning - Helter Skelter The Dream of the Two-Headed Dragon I remember the comfort... spread out like a blanket in the quiet dreams, and rest, and wisdom, and communion, everywhere, nowhere – the only existence. I remember when I was the universe, before the journey that cr...
  • Faith This is a drawing I made back in May of 1998... when I made this drawing I was in the midst of my first big depression, laid off from work, injured, and on Workman's Comp. If you would like to get a framed print, sticker, note card, journal or greeti...
  • Tracking The Storm on Facebook I had a pretty bad depression storm move in this last week, and I've been tracking it by making daily posts on Facebook. Tonight I thought I'd try to elaborate a little on those postings... Day 1 - Wednesday This storm started on Wednesday morning, ...
  • The Monster Pill, Part 2 - Jelly Paws and Black Hole Suitcases... Continued from The Monster Pill - July 19, 2009... Last summer, and during August in particular, I went through a really bad depression - I mean - really bad. As you can see from the drawing to the left that I made of my brain in my sketchbook duri...
  • The Monster Pill If I'm okay, then you're okay... In a world that is often childish and emotionally driven, I find there are days when I'm less than my ideal self, and everything I do seems to be a reaction from my emotional storms and bi-polar-coaster ride. On ...
  • Long Depressions and a Life of Cycles It may seem like I've disappeared, but I'm still here... weathering a long storm of depression. This storm started back in late April, and has come and gone in waves, in cycles within cycles. I should be use to this by now, but I never get used to i...
  • Double Rainbow Please note: I am publishing this post about a week after I first wrote it. See the note at the end of the post for more details... Ripples After The Splash The last 36 hours have been very difficult. (the story gets better, really.....
  • Manic Depression Is A Frustrating Mess There is a reason why my posts have been very limited over the last few weeks. As you can see from the title of this post the name of the monster I've been living with... not a nice house guest. Many people know that manic-depression is the name pe...